you had to hide away for so long ....
I need to see The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind like yesterday already. Everytime I see one of the spots for it, I really have a deep yearning to scream at the world for not having a sneak preview of it around here already I could sneak into. Charlie Kaufman movies tend to own me. "Being John Malkovich" and "Adaptation" both rock my socks.
I've been listening to "Superunknown" by Soundgarden a lot the past few days. Nostalgia maybe? Not a bad CD at all. "The Day I Tried to Live" is still one of my favorite songs ever. "Doolittle" by the Pixies has also been getting a lot of play here altely, now I remember why that's one of my all time favorite albums.
But yeah, I love the premise of "Eternal Sunshine ..." -- that one could just erase all the memories of those fucked up relationships -- therapists would be out of business quick, that goes without saying. Plus, it's refreshing to see Kate Winslet in a movie that isn't set in India for a change.
I meant to get this entry written sooner, but Raven called me right when I started writing to discuss some site business. I had unplugged my phone since I was about to crash, but thankfully my machine grabbed it and I intercepted it in time. The past few days, if it's past 1 am, I tend to just gank the phone out since I have the bad habit of getting into long phonecalls at 3 or 4 am -- never good if one values their sleep.
But yeah, relationships that one regrets -- that's a whole pandora's box of issues right there, since yeah it'd be great to just erase all the angst but then without the sour there's no sweet and so much of who you are as a person is defined by bad relationships -- at least some people. It's tantamount to killing a part of your personality makeup.
I'd love to have a relationship with someone right now that wasn't complicated by issues of distance and communication, but that goes back to the sweet and sour comment -- if something's worth sacrificing for in the short term, the long term tends to reward you. On the other hand, it's hard when people aren't present and, in a way, wholly intangible. We as a species are very oriented towards the tactile and the visual, it's really hard when all you have to hold onto is an ether, you know? Adn when communication lapses for whatever reason even that becomes strained, which is just disheartening. At least in my point of observation
Anyway, time for sleep. Knowing me I'll have more to write about in the morning.